Few more hours to go for JAM paper.i should not be sitting and typing instead should be burried deep inside books suffocating myself which i think most of the graduating students must be right now facing.but then my prognosis says i am not destined to be in IIT (not that i believe in destiny but then its the most appropriate excuse which i can give myself). For some of my friends, it has been a turmoil for the last couple of months.Aloof from the rest of the world, they burnt the midnight lamp, struggling hard to just make it to the most premiere institute of the coutry and ya for some of them,it's definitely a second chance. Some oozing out with confidence, some seem so paranoid, some definitely said they are gonna rock it and for some,its tomorrow or never. 3 hrs of writing a paper and then your life just take a turn, opening new gates, new hope, new zeal and a bright future but for some of us anticipation might just turn into a nightmare but then who knows what's waiting out there for us. Wishes pouring in. The time passing by making me feel so helpless but i know life has something nice stored for all of us because that's our destiny which we definitely desire and deserve too.

i woke up from my dream with a smile just to realize'it was just a dream and you were just a part of it'. Reality struck me hard, making me engulf those hard core facts. Life seemed so fastidious all over again. Tears rolled down effortlessly. Pain dawned upon. I stretched my hands to just find you gone. I wanted to scream, demur but then words suddenly stopped flowing by, mind abandoned me, everything around came to a stand still and i became numb, 'comfortably numb'.
i sit aloof deeply contemplating' where did it go wrong, where?. The only answer i seek and the acquisitiveness to break through this question makes me clumsy and wrenched but then still i try to acquiesce with life making an effort to live because i still can't find a reason to complain, nothing to repent for, nothin to lose.Every expectation has fallen apart, every hope has been ruptured,those widened eyes have stopped looking at me anymore." I AM LOST".



something's gone i withdraw and i'm not strong like before i was
deep inside of you
i can go nowhere; i burn candles and stare at a ghost
deep inside of you
i have lost myself,there's nothing left, it's all gone
deep inside of you
deep inside of you
third eye blind.